REALITY CHECK

I've been missing my blogs and I feel so lost without it, the lack of not being able to release what I am thinking makes me believe I am stuck or stagnant.  I attended my Women's group hosted by the Vet Center I am so thankful  for this place : this place is my release it allows me to recognize I am not alone in this journey there are other women out there experiencing the same or similar.  Living with a husband with PTSD makes you a subject for PTSD yourself. So instead of trying to help your partner /loved one you are failing to assist yourself. BUT that stops after awhile because in life you cannot change someone , you cannot make that person think the way you would like them to think  or act even if it is in their best interest, therefore, you make choices either you choose to watch the spiral of destruction or you  move on with your life without or without this person.  Whatever decision you make is yours and yours alone, no one can tell you the caregiver, wife, loved etc what you need to do you are in charge of your life, we all have a life path planned out for us so we make our choices and live with them good or bad we deal with whatever consequences are at hand.  I am taking better care of myself after all, if I cannot take care of myself how will I cae for our child and family, I truly can't , therefore this is my new happy place or shall I say THE STRONGER , HAPPIER me making the changes need to make for me and our child for the betterment of our family.  I also realized I have to run spellcheck on every entry I guess I slacked  always in a hurry , the rabbit didn't win the race for a reason. HAHAAHa Have a great day!